Today 2025 begins 4 me
Finishing finally The Book of Disquiet
I feel excessively vulnerable saying that I am going to miss very specific people once I leave, since everything will be different afterwards because of the differing context we will interact under. I am working towards a brand new future, and somehow I have lost the vigor- the only thing buttressing me presently is discipline. We have been collecting responses for the audit that we are doing, and we are making exponential progress. I am making progress with the syllabus too. My juniors think I am smart, and honestly, I may be. I have finished The Book of Disquiet and Succesion. I feel accomplished. I told myself my real begining of 2025 is when I finish these two things. I occasionally reminisce about the pandemic and the days when I was so unbearably miserable, I'd sleep at 6 and wake up at 2 to begin studying. Honestly, I think I should restart doing that. I am going to go and buy myself a book tomorrow, I wanted to wait for my salary, but it's simply not arriving. I think, I want to start the year the same way I started last year with a Haruki Murakami. I am taking a friend of mine, so that I can help her discover a book she will adore. I wish some things could last forever, yet they don't. Quite often, I hear Logan Roy say, “You are not serious figures” and that effects me. I feel awfully ridiculous. There is this scene where Kendall says, “People who love you, also fuck you”, and I fucking love it. I made a 2024 compilation reel, but I haven't posted it. I wanted to create an edit of 2024, yet I haven't. Somehow, all the edits I have created aren't to the calibre I have set for myself. I met two patients who used to be in my van during my post-O levels and pre-Jinnah phase; we were recalling previous times and reinstating how life has changed. Life always changes and I am terrific at embracing it, yet this life being lost is significantly difficult to let go off. I often tell people I am going to wear a Sabyasachi Saree one day and I think I can, one day. With my own money.